Trust Me

You know those days when nothing seems to go right? When no matter how hard you try to make something work it just doesn't? Those days that seem to be jam packed with discouragement? That leave you sitting on a back staircase in the school of music talking to your mom on the phone, as tears stream down your face? Ya... today was one of "those" days for me.

I left the university tonight feeling utterly confused, disappointed and discouraged. Not about school work or midterms, but about life. About all the concerns, big and small, that filled my day. I began my walk home with thoughts still bouncing around in my head.  Suddenly I was jolted back to reality... it was as if God whispered gently into my ear, "Sara, do you trust me?"

It seems silly to think that anyone would ever STOP trusting God, yet there I was, just moments before, drowning in my own confusion and worries. I had allowed the unexpected trials, failed plans, and discouraging words of others distract me from God's truth. Thankfully God took my hand and lead me back to His promises.

As I continued my walk home, pondering the question "Do you trust me?" this verse came to mind:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."  Proverbs 3:5,6


No matter how many times I've written, recited, read this verse, it's beauty always takes my breath away. What great joy and peace fills my heart when I trust in the Lord. My worries seem to float away when I'm reminded to lean on Him and not on myself.

As I finished my short walk home, that's exactly what happened. My discouragement, worry, confusion and disappointment were swept away in the breeze as I refocused my eyes on Christ.

Next time you have one of "those" days, think of this verse, let it linger in the air and take a second to listen to his voice as He whispers...

"Trust me."

thinking about love

I've been thinking about love lately...  

(no, that doesn't mean day dreaming about prince charming) 

and more precisely, what love looks like.

In a world filled with selfish ambition, jealousy,
deception and hatred, it is easy to lose
sight of what true love is and what it looks like.

Perhaps this is why my heart was so refreshed
as I glanced through old pictures the other day.
In these pictures I saw more than just
people and memories... I saw love.

Let me show you what I mean...

Love looks like my mom and dad...

Who never once let their own trials and struggles prevent 

them from loving and serving others.  

Love looks like my Oma and Opa...

who have nurtured and loved many foster children

back to health, constantly living

selfless and humble lives. 

Love looks like neighbours...

who have been there through thick and thin, 

loving you no matter how silly you are.

Love looks like Camp Brereton...
The camp that was graciously provided this past year
for CNIB to use, in order to bless children who are blind
or visually impaired. The camp that made one little boy
exclaim in pure joy, "I've never felt like
 I belong, until I came to this camp." 

Love looks like this beautiful lady...

Who lives in a mud house in Uganda, with no bed, 

no running water and no light bulbs, 

yet kindly invited me into her home,

fed me a feast, and willingly gave away 

one of her only posessions, a mat she had weaved out of grass. 

Love looks like the church body...

A church that has stood by my family's side through 

the countless ups and downs of cancer.

A church that put on a social to raise funds

for my family when my dad needed to 

receive treatments in Pittsburgh.

Love looks like this little boy...

who always had an endless supply of smiles, hugs, 

and blessings for me, every time I walked into the room. 

I hope that your heart was also refreshed by these stories as mine was.

After thinking about these people and their lives, I am left
feeling challenged and inspired to radiate love in all I do.

So let it be my goal and hopefully yours too,

that with each passing day we show more love 

than we did the day before.

When people see a picture of you are they 

reminded of what love looks like? 

"Do everything in love. " - 1 Corinthians 16:14

Farewell Stress

Recently I have had many conversations with my friends about the stresses they are facing in university. The countless lab reports, assignments and midterms. Ironically I find myself in a place of stress for the complete opposite reason. I'm sitting at home wishing my professors would come back so I could hand in assignments and write midterms. This weird scenario I find myself in, got me thinking...

Why is it so easy to find someone who is stressed, and so hard to find someone content and happy living in the moment? Why is it that we can find every possible reason to get worked up, upset and stressed, yet if you ask someone to think about their blessings they have difficulty coming up with one? 

The more I thought about this, the more determined I became to NOT let stress rule my life and to make every effort to find beauty in the broken. I think I've spent enough time stressing in my life, so here's to hoping that with God's grace I can remove stress from my day and fill that time wasted with joy unending. 

Here it goes... A list of things that have brought me a lot of joy recently:

The smell of freshly baked cookies

& making muffins at 1 am

The look of a newly painted (and clean) room

Challenging & Inspiring Books

Watching the Winnipeg Jets 

Good conversations with friends

Watching snowflakes fall to the ground 

& Music of the guitar, piano, singing and flute variety 

I'm going to challenge you along with myself, to remove stress from your life, and fill that time with more love and more joy. 

They say there is a young lady...

"They say there is a young lady in New Haven who is beloved of that Great Being who made and rules the world. They say that He fills her mind with exceeding sweet delight, and that she hardly cares for anything except to meditate on Him. If you present all the world to her, with the richest of its treasures, she disregards it. She is unmindful of any pain or affliction. She has a singular purity in her affections. You could not persuade her to compromise her true Love even if you would give her all the world. She possesses a wonderful sweetness, calmness and kindness to those around her. She will sometimes go about from place to place, singing sweetly. She seems to be always full of joy and pleasure, and no one knows exactly why. She loves to be alone, walking in the fields and groves and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her."

Written about Sara Edwards by Jonathan Edwards, her future husband.

Just recently I came across this quote and I have to admit it is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. It is evident that this woman's very presence pointed other people to the sweet and wonderful love of God. Her entire being was full of love and gentle kindness. She didn't just speak about living her life for Christ, she simply lived it and with every sweet and kind action she pointed others to God. 

My first thoughts after reading this description of Sara Edwards were "If someone were to write a description of me, what would it say?" Would it speak of... an unending love for my Savior? A sweet delight that fills my very being? A heart that desires only Gods will? A passion for my faith so rich and deep that no one could persuade me otherwise? A wonderful sweetness, calmness and kindness?

I'd like to say it would, but reality is that my presence and actions do not always point to my Savior and my attitude is not always sweet, calm and kind. This quote has encouraged and challenged me to seek a life fully lived for my God. It inspires me to be set apart and different from "worldly standards" and pursue the sweetness that comes from the Maker and Creator of our world. I know I will fail many times in my life and I won't always portray Christ-like beauty, but despite my failures I will continue to try, every day, to be a set apart young lady like that described above. 

If someone were to write a description about YOU, what would it say?

He Knows You and Loves You.

As I was cleaning up my room today I stumbled upon a letter I wrote three years ago... it goes like this:

"Lord,

You know my heart. You know everything about me. You know my thoughts, you know my pains. Every tear you wipe away. Every smile, you rejoice. You know every desire that burns in my heart. You know my faults and flaws. You know my gifts and talents. And you oh Lord made me exactly the way you wanted. You wouldn't have me any other way. Help me find value and meaning in your words of life. Remind me that you love me with an everlasting love and that you have an amazing plan for me. You know the hurt and pain of all the broken people in this world. Yet you long to be near us. You long to be near the broken and the hurting, the outcasts and the homeless. Lord, pour out your love on me, so that I can pour it out on the people around me. Give me compassion and understanding. Open my ears to listen, my mind to understand, my heart to love and my eyes to see."

I pray that this encourages you and reminds you that God is the complete expression of love.  He will wipe the tears from your eyes and carry you close to his heart through life's journeys. He knows you and loves you.



(I wrote the above prayer/letter while on SOAR Heartland in 2008. I feel so blessed to have had the opportunity to participate in that amazing program with the incredible team I was with. Each and every person on that team has inspired and encouraged me in so many ways. If any of you are reading this.. Thank You!)

Love, Joy & Peace

Every day for the past two weeks and for the upcoming three weeks I make a lovely 40 minute early morning drive all the way from East St. Paul to Charleswood. At first this trip was brutal, because to put it plainly, I am NOT a morning person. Ironically I now look forward to this drive because it is the perfect quiet time for God and I. As I drive I pray, I talk to God, I listen, I praise Him with song and some hand drumming on my steering wheel and I celebrate another beautiful day of life.

The other day as I was driving and singing my heart out I lifted up a prayer to God asking that He would fill me with unending love, joy that radiates from my very being and peace beyond understanding. Just as I had finished my prayer I arrived at school. My day turned out to be incredibly chaotic and a little bit out of control. The students had SO much energy and I felt like I was running around all day. To be honest I completely forgot about my prayer as the chaos of life took hold of my day. By the end of the day I was exhausted and ready for the weekend.

As I started the trek back home in rush hour I found myself sitting in my car with a huge smile on my face (I probably looked ridiculous). It was a busy day, but hidden within the day were countless things that made me smile, things that brought me joy. My heart was rejoicing and there was no stopping it. I truly believe that this joy was from God alone. At first I was amazed at how quickly God had answered my prayer, but then I thought to myself, why WOULDN'T He answer that prayer. God loves to see His people filled with love, joy and peace. Take some time each morning to seek those things and you'll be surprised and how quickly a smile will creep on to your face !

One more way that God shows us His Love, Joy and Peace is through our Mothers. As it is Mothers Day I'd like to say that I am so grateful for my mom. She is a woman of faith, a mother of grace, and a best friend. She has always been there for me through good times and bad times. She has dried countless tears and encouraged much laughter. Gods love comes in many ways and I have felt His love through my mom many times in my 19 years of life. It is a beautiful day to celebrate our mothers and the amazing God who has blessed us with them.

Love you so much mom! 

Life as Miss Bittner

As of today I have successfully completed my first week of student teaching at Charleswood Junior High and what a week it has been! Its funny to think that only a few years ago the thought of going into Music Education hadn't even crossed my mind, and now I am finished two years of my degree and loving it more and more with each passing day. I am encouraged and uplifted to think that even though I had not planned on doing this with my life, God led me to a place He knew I would love. I am so filled with joy to know that God will guide me along the best pathway for my life. As it says in Psalm 32, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you." (verse 8) If you're ever uncertain and worried about the future, remind yourself of this beautiful promise! Gods dreams and plans are often a million times better than our own! Try to trust him! 

I'm really excited with how my first week of student teaching went, so I thought it might be nice to  share some of my favorite moments so far:

• A couple students telling me that no one has been able to get them to be THAT quiet since the beginning of September and that they were amazed by my teaching! 
• Being greeted as Miss Bittner 
• Figuring out the students master plan of making up fake names (they were so disappointed that I knew what they were going to do!)
• Teaching a full day of classes on my fourth day of student teaching! Crazy but such a fun time. 
• Having the students laugh at my jokes!!! ( best thing ever!) 
• Two girls coming up to me saying, " You're such a great teacher! Seriously, you're sooo good!"

Hope your week was amazing too!! And here is a little challenge for your weekend: